Well yesterday was a trying day for me. I don't really go deep into my "personal" issues like I'd want to because this industry is a beast. It will chew you up and spit you out. And most times the next person doesn't give a f*ck what you're going through. They just want hot music or shut the f*ck up. And if you REALLY Blow up then they get on some "hater" sh*t and try to tear you down. So in the Hip Hop Game, it's almost like you signing up to be destroyed.
That's just Hip Hop, now add to that "REAL LIFE" and you got pressure that's makes pipes burst. I've been going thru a lot of bullsh*t behind the scenes that has prevented me from being the force I know I can be in this game. For the past 3 or 4 years it's been constant BULLSH*T. Foreal. Not no petty sh*t either. And yesterday was no different. Imagine having to spend thousands of dollars constantly to clean up a family members mistakes. While at the same time trying to focus on a career that cost THOUSANDS of dollars. Imagine ALWAYS being there for someone who is Never THERE for you. And not because you want to be, but because you HAVE to be. Now make that person your mothe.. You know what. Nevermind. I'm gonna be alright.
I was raised to think that family comes first. Maybe it's a fault but that's what I was taught. And I was also raised under constant disappointment. Constant pain. Family issues. Anger issues. I guess that's why I turned to Music as a release. I also turned to books. I read Alot. ...ALOT.
Music was my medication. The only time I was happy. Sometimes it's still like that today. But alot has changed once I got into the actual "business" of music and saw the true colors of this game. I mean the exact minute you sign-up, you get automatic haters. You gotta deal with Liars, fakes, con-artist, egos.... you name it, it's in there. It's like the DEVIL himself runs the game. Have you listened to some of this sh*t lately? The same music that raised me and loved me when I needed that comfort, that knowledge, Doesn't give a f*ck about the kids today. Listen to the radio and I challenge you to find a Hip Hop song that's child appropriate. Sh*t, I challenge you to find one that's TEENAGE appropriate. If you do hit me up and I'll post it for the world to see. But I'm sure all you'll find is audio porn.
But my point of this post is, You never know what someone is going through. So when you see an artist you believe in trying, Support them. It's hard out here man. Sometimes the Hate overshadows the love because the Haters are Vocal and LOUD. They Scream the hate at you. They post hate comments, shoot out hate tweets.. etc.. Whereas the people that love you seem to assume you know already know and aren't as vocal. I love my supporters, but sometimes I need you more than you know. It's Just like having Home Court advantage in a Basketball Game. Sometimes the roar of the crowd is the lil extra you need to win. If you support an artist, Post it for EVERYBODY to see, every place that the haters dwell. Sometimes that's the difference in a good day and a Bad one.
I got a lot of thoughts going through my head, so I might have rambled a bit, but I had to get some of this off my chest. I do thank any and everyone that has ever taken the time to read what I have to say. Or listen to a song I have to sing. Or just patted me on the back and said "Good Job." That goes a long way. You just don't know.
If you get a chance go to my website and check out Monique interview with Foxy Brown. (
CLICK HERE) She touches on this topic A lil tiny bit.
You truly NEVER know what a person is going through. And yesterday on my twitter account I posted that "these are the days that make me wanna quit..."
But don't get too excited hater's, I aint ready to quit yet. Not until I put my stamp ALL THE WAY on this game. Watch what I got coming up... I'm bout to bang on deez boys.
I get tested everyday, and that statement about "quitting" was a result of having one of those days. But in all fairness to my fans...
...That was Yesterday.
Peace & Love,
Flyboy
